The fact of the matter is that I'm pretty insecure. I do a seemingly decent job of seeming confident, but I feel a lot like Dignin on in Bottle Rocket, on his little motor scooter with his sweet yellow jumpsuit saying, "I'm not as confident as I look." The reality is that I'm insanely jealous of people who accomplish things. I'm not jealous in a bad way. I don't wish anyone harm, I don't want anyone who is succeeding to fail or go down in the proverbial ball of flames. Instead, I want to be there. I want to be that person. It's more of a felling of admiration than jealousy, but who can really tell the difference and, at some point, those feelings of admiration have a tendency to dabble in jealousy. I think what they are doing is kick-ass and I want to do it to. I love smart people. I love information and, naturally, admire the hell out of smart people because they are full of info. By the same token, I loathe arrogant, lazy, entitled, uninspired people. So, with that said, I'm going to devote some time to name-dropping people I know who are doing great things with themselves. People with seemingly no other connection other than me, like Bengt Anderson Marcus Lalario and Nathan Collins, who I'll talk about below. I'll come back to this idea every now and then in my blog and intermix some of my own original content. This might make it a little more fun.
I'm going to try and keep this blog post fairly brief, because I have a ton more to say and want to percolate on it a little while. It's enough to fill up 4 or 5 posts. But I'll leave with this...I was in a high school class with 3 other guys who were really, really, really bright. A set of twins and one other kid. Two of them got into MIT, the one who didn't got his masters in physics there and then did a PhD in Economics from Stanford. Not too shabby for a public high school in a Seattle suburb, huh? Of the twins, one I liked and one just did not suit me well. In spanish, "no me cae, bien". He didn't fall on me, or sit well with me would be the direct translation. Well, I'm pleased to say that he's doing well as a postdoctoral fellow at the University of Washington in biophysics, but the twin I did like - he's doing some cool stuff.
Nathan Collins is a guy who is just smarter than me. I have a PhD, have done some pretty decent research in tissue engineering, co-authored 15 or 16 papers and am married to a pediatric surgeon. I'm proud of my accomplishments, but remember the thesis of this post; other people are better at stuff than I am. I think Nathan is an intellectual ass-kicker and now he's plying his trade at the Santa Fe Institute doing work in Economics, a discipline I am fascinated by and wish I knew more about. Nathan, cheers man. Good work and tomorrow, I'll try and re-connect with you after about 15 years and see if you can teach me a few things about game theory, people's decision making behaviors and econ.